There is one couple here who, I think, are the greatest. They balance each other so perfectly that it's so natural. There is no water and oil affect going on there. There are many girls who have stuck to and have been true to who they are. And to those people, I believe I missed judged. I am so thankful they allowed me to get to know them and prove to me that there is more. There are layers. And they choose because they have already had the experience even when it seems impossible, imaginable. There are many guys that I have met that are wonderful. But only a handful, truly care and have no external motivations. To these men, they still give me hope of chivalry. Many of us have grown, but through this we also learned to have fun and be childish. I believe I learned this lesson the most. There is a balance and its ok to be a bit crazy at times. While many have changed, some have found love, some gave love, and even realized a love from the past or even themselves.
And even when there is so much good, there is still bad. I have learned that not all men have these chivalry characteristics. Through witnessing at bars and hearing word of it- I learned there are still some men who believe they have power and control. To the men who don't treat women with respect, I would like to introduce you to the 20th century where women do more than like pretty on your arm, you buy them drinks all night, and then you think you can do whatever. We choose. You can buy drinks all night long, your choice. Then we have our choice.
For the women this happened to, I want to say I'm sorry. And I know so many. I am sorry that men can't see that your friendly, bubbly personality is not to be flirty but simply a kindness that glows around you. A joy that makes everyone around you, feel it.
With these last two thoughts, I learned a lot of women feel guilty. So my hope and if I could do anything is help women understand they can say no. To speak up about their feelings, their likes, and their dislikes. I want women to feel open to talk about this. This is happening way too often...
Allora, for myself... Lets see. I think I learned a new definition of happiness. I have gotten so many comments, text, snapchats that say, "You look great!", "You look so happy!" or "You seem happy." And you know, I am. I am so happy here. I don't know if it's the daily gelato but I am happy. I never think about my happiness or lack of it while I'm here. I think that is most important. I simply do, feel, and go on. I haven't reflected or over thought as much. And maybe I'm living so much that that will come. Maybe next week, maybe next month, maybe in a few years. But for now I am happy. Who could ask for more? I hope to keep this mind set. Also, as I wrote before some found love within themselves, I think fall here. I'm falling in love with who I am. I've always been feeling good about being me. But when you travel with a group of people you do realize their comments are truth. Not only that but I recognize those awesome characteristics.
This is not where I expected my blog to go but I think what I wrote is true. Well, an hour has passed so I will be going to sleep now. My grandma and aunts will be here in five hours!!!!!
Photos will be added later.
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