First Sight

Tonight as I sit on my couch, I couldn't help but be moved as I watched my roommates interact with one another. I have just under two weeks left of my junior year. This meaning I will have a single room next year and start student teaching. Obviously, I thought about my rooming situation but always in the practical sense... "Yes, I should get a single because I will be student teaching and I will be on campus for a semester." But I never really thought of it as the first step in goodbye. Or at least goodbye to what I'm use to. I'm use to Elise and I walking to class together. Vicki giving me a hug -almost once a day. I'm use to Laura being around in the evening, willing to talk about the day's events.
Now I will have to learn to get use to the new usual. And this is the situation I put myself in because I was afraid to feel these things in December, not May. If I were to be truthful with you -this will probably happen with a bunch in my relationships. I'm afraid of the "goodbye" and all that it entails; so I started pulling back and pushing away.
Nonetheless, I'm aware of it and trying to work through it. For now, this is the first sight of change. I know more will be coming.
Here are a few photos of my roommates and I through the past two years...

Our first picture together.

In New York @ Elise's summer house.

Hotel Room in Canada. 

This year in our apartment.

If you didn't notice, we now have a routine to our photo... Always Laura, me, Vicki, & Elise. Always.